Fraud 'Friends' : Faking the Funk, for Fuckery

It's official, I have finally hit the capacity for fuckery - to such extremes that if I don't release it to the Internet Super Highway ( the internet, for those confused. ) then i'll wind up exploding out here in the real world. And well, i'd prefer to not put myself in a type of scenerio that could add to the damn fines I already have accumulated. Capeesh?

Cig? Check.
Lighter? Check.
Pissy? Check.
Perfect, here I go....
|| Fraud 'Friends' : Faking the Funk, for Fuckery! ||

I find it marginally disturbing that people apparently view themselves on such an insanely high pedestal that they feel that there is some endless surplus of eager people, waving their hands in the air, "pick meee, pick meeeeeee," hoping and praying that they're chosen to be friends with them. Get fuckin' real - we're either on the "other side to 30," ( which is 25+ ) or in our 30's, and what it boils down to is this - that shit ain't fuckin' cute, in fact, it's senseless. I, for one, am too damn old for this type of namby pamby bullshit - there's simply NO SUCH THING as 2nd chances with people I have friendships with, whether it be in the beginning, months in, years invested - doesn't matter. We're too old to be fuckin' our friendships up. We, as grown folks, choose which bonds prevail, which ones function and which ones ultimately fail. So, when somebody makes the ridiculous decision to be reckless enough to dent, disrespect and ultimately destroy their relationship with me? It's their loss. Especially at this point in my life. Am I salty? Of course. It's always an unfortunate realization when you learn just how off your perception on this type of thing is. But, really - it's also an unfortunate favor, because knowing sooner than later, about who is authentic, and on the same wave length, is important, too. Nonetheless, I have a very small circle, and every fuckin' time this happens, I stay thinkin', "How the fuck can this circle of mine, get any smaller?" Well, there's always some aggresively dense type to remind me, "Courtney, it can always get smaller, you're just gunna have to be even more cautious about every single person that comes anywhere near you and yours," -- and damn, that's some bullshit.



I honestly just can't grasp where these people get off. I truly don't. There is nothing okay with playing, "make believe," at this age, concerning a friendship. There's a reason certain people aren't held in regard to very many, and there's even more of a reason that these same people have no idea of the rarity that comes with having a "real friend," because clearly, they've just never managed to keep it real enough, long enough, to experience the phenomena that IS a "real friend." Regardless of lack of experiencing it, that does not, at any point, excuse fuckerish behavior - and by fuckerish behavior, I mean any damn thing that is disrespectful towards one of your friendships, we're grown, you're aware of the choices, the shit you've chosen to say, do - the shit you've chosen to lie about, and the way you're willing to look someone in the eyes and fake the funk, meanwhile, accepting all the good from that friendship, whether it be emotional, financial, monotary, whatthefuckever - the bitch smack from reality will come when you realize you should of maybe got some humbleeeee about yourselves, because certain unique and solid bonds, don't come around frequently, and you'll soon realize, it's true what they say, "Don't know what you got, til it's gone.." Well, believe me, it's fuckin' gone.